Sometimes I think I want to be mad or upset with you but I never am. You don't ever message me or email me or even text me and I know I spend more effort into this friendship than you do. I should be mad but I'm not. Being mad at you could be the only selfish thing I could do but that doesn't change anything. I guess I can't be mad at you because I care about you too much. So instead I'm mad at myself. For being so pathetic and caring so much about someone who doesn't give a minute in her day to say hi.