Here without you~

I hadn't blogged in what felt like an eternity. The truth is, my wasn't uneventful. I just lacked the motivation to make things exciting. For the past couple of weeks, I've been repeating the same week over and over again since my activities were virtually the same but with one very small difference. My friends weren't there. One of my close friends was in Panama for a cousin's wedding. Another was on a cruise to the states. My closest friend of all was busy working. Whenever had I problems I had no where to turn and that made things build up inside me. Slowly but surely my emotions got the better of me and I was unable to control my pent up rage.

Another reason I was a bit out of it was the fact that one of my friends I thought I was close with began to distance herself from me. I suspected that she was just bored of me and was moving on. I never got a reason but either way it was inevitable. When I went out to play sports and such I had to act as if nothing was wrong and that was the most painful part. But Ella's finally come home from her cruise and I was able to speak with her. That was the release I needed to bring me back to who I was. That, and the fact that I screaming to Cross My Heart by Mariannas Trench a couple dozen times. I call it screaming and not singing for that's what will reported to the police when I'm sued for public disturbance.

There were a few interesting things that had occurred to me as of recent though. I had gone to a beach for my first time with my ultimate frisbee friends. We played volleyball and ultimate. There was a BBQ and we ventured to Mc Donald's as well. It was an okay day but I didn't have as much fun as I wished I could've. I also got to hang out with my Korean friend one on one for the first time in over a year. We're close and we've known each other since grade three. I'm glad I got to spend time with him because I have more fun trash talking with him than anything else in the world. We played ping pong and tennis. I won in both *winky wink*.

I've also made a new friend. To be honest I knew about her since the beginning of the year but didn't have the guts to ever say hi. Due to my oddly wavering self esteem whenever I had the chance to say hi I just stopped myself. But since things weren't going too great as of late, I went in with the mentality of what else could go wrong, I have nothing else to lose. And in the end the risk paid off. Rona was a new friend of mine. She was shy but very kind. She always logged online relatively late at night so we talked till late hours. It was refreshing talking to someone new since I had just recently lost a close friend. Having Rona really helped numb the pain though.

The day before I also had quite the interesting conversation with a friend of mine. Since I bug my friends a lot about the little things and tell them things they shouldn't do, and ask them a handful of questions when they go out or come home late, many have compared me to their fathers. But recently, something interesting occurred. One of my friends had said "You sound like my mom." I laughed and being the witty know it all I am I thought I was correcting her when I said. "Don't you mean I sound like your dad?" Little did I know I was wrong. She then quickly replied. "No." With quick retaliation I fired "I'm pretty sure you meant dad. I'm a guy." With no surprise she said "No no, I'm pretty sure I meant mom." That ended our conversation for the day as she left for bed. The following day as soon as she logged online I type "HOW AM I LIKE YOUR MOM!" Then she said "That is exactly what my mom would've said." She laughed and I stopped trying. The lesson of the day is, don't ever think you know more than a girl. Because no matter how hard you try, the girl knows more.

Currently listening to: Here Without You - Three Doors Down

down to earth~