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No matter how many times I try to drop using this I always come back to it. It seems like I really just need a place to vent all my psychobabble so that the rest of the world doesn't have to endure such a cruel fate. I hate it I just hate it so much. I hate not being able to be who I want to be in order to make others more content with my decisions. It was no wonder I always found so much more comfort in my shows and my books. They never judged me. But now that I'm left fighting this battle by myself I plea for one thing. I just hope she comes home. Oh dear I do miss her so much. Ashton of course. She left to go to Hong Kong to pursue her dreams as a model after she won the Miss Toronto Chinese Pageant. She keeps moving forward but I still feel like I'm standing still. Why is that? The only thing I am certain of at the moment is that I would rather bury my face in a book than have to deal with another person. Things just aren't look too bright for me. I miss you Ashton Hong, but that won't change a single thing......