Every time you make a decision you turn my whole world inside out.

First day of clinical~

It was an eight hour orientation.... What can I say. I hadn't had a good nights sleep so I was dead tired and listening to people talk for 8 hours without falling asleep wasn't the easiest of tasks. I did get to see a bunch of cute old people though. I cannot wait till I find out who I am placed with. I met some new people and one very very attractive young individual. Details at 11 xD jk jk. Hope things are good in Toronto =) too tired to type anymore. Peace out!

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Sydney White~

I just recently watched Sydney White a remake of Snow White and the seven dwarfs in modern times and it was absolutely fantastic. Amanda Bynes is always a great actor and I loved how even the loser's like I, had happy endings. Although mine has not been written yet I'm sure who evers writing the story just got writer's block. It's early morning clinical for me and I can't wait for my first day of experience taking care of old people. Old people are just so cute =P haha. Anywho, I heard the song Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul in the movie and it reminded me of someone back home. Not to touch too much on such a subject but it was a good memory of the past and a nice way to reminisce about past events. That is why I love music and am willing to buy my music. Music is my memory. It is how I remember my past, present, and hopefully future. Music dictates my emotions and can talk me through rough patches. It inspires me to do what I love and speaks to me when no ones listening. So when I meet the right person, I'm sure I'll be listening to the perfect tune. Until then may music flow into our minds and travel to our hearts. Nights Toronto!

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Another day in class~

I just realized that I really only see my friends 3 times a week since Thursdays and Fridays are clinical, I only see them Monday to Wednesday. And since classes were canceled for tomorrow I would not be seeing anyone for a good five days. This would really suck if I was in any mood to care. But as of lately I've lost my drive to complete most tasks. Even eating seems like a hassle when you don't really like what you're eating. I recently learned how to use my rice cooker to make rice and I've been eating that for a couple of days. I wonder If she ever stops to think about me, when every word, every picture, every smile reminds me of her. This can also just be the side effects of taking my medication. Since it tampers with my hormones in a way I tend to be more moody around these times. However, if I do not take my meds I'd be stuck with insomnia, which is associated with my low platelet count =/. What a win win situation I live in.

Currently listening to: Cute Is What We Aim For - Curse of Curves

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First day of classes for 2010~

It's the first day of class and I already have 6 hours of lecture... That's brutal. For all of you in high school that hear the teacher only talk for 20 minutes every period you do not know how lucky you truly are... First was lab where we had a new teacher and we were not aware that this teacher was chalkboard friendly... hence I forgot to bring a pen. Then our new self and others teacher for second period, I was not aware that she was... snappy >.> Before when I first came to London it had felt like London and Toronto were world's apart but when I no longer care about where I am... they just seem so much closer. They no longer make much of a difference to me. Sleeping feels more like napping and nights feel more like mornings. Maybe after a few more days I'll get the hang of it again.

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First day back in London~

It's my first day in London for the year 2010. It's Jan 3rd and no one else is here because I start earlier than all the other programs. Nothing has changed. There's still just one person I wish to see but can't. I spent a large portion of my day cleaning and getting ready for a second semester. Nothing seems to really matter in this silence I call my second home. As king of my own domain I have come to realized that a king is no king if his kingdom has no subjects. I did miss my computer though. The quad core speed really makes me feel right at home. Lols doesn't hurt to have high speed internet too ^_^. Some things can't be replaced though. I can never just pick up the phone to hear the sound of her voice anymore. Not until February that is. In that time I spend away from home I shall improve myself to return home with new hopes!

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My College Room~

First day of the year~

It was Jan 1 but it didn't feel like a new beginning to me. Maybe it was because I missed her. Whatever it was it didn't matter. I had completely forgotten about the new year until I had seen the numbers 2010 on my cousins birthday cake. The days all just blur together now not letting me differentiate between what I had done and what I need to do. I have one day left in Toronto before I leave again yet I feel as if I wish for tomorrow to come sooner. However, even with the unfinished business my caged wings are crying out for attention. The grass is always greener on the other side and whenever I'm in London I'll be thinking about her. The heart wants what it can't have I guess. This blog probably does not make much sense because even I am trying to find meaning in all this confusion. A good nights sleep should solve all of this. Peace out home dawg'ers.