I spent the last few days playing Magic the Gathering and entering free or cheap tournaments to get back into standard format. Magic is a game where after every two years your cards are no longer legal to play in tournaments so I had to build a new deck. It wasn't cheap but it was a whole lot cheaper than what everyone else was spending. I played $400 decks and still somehow managed to win. The first tournament I got first but it was an easier tournament with less people. On Friday I played Friday Night Magic and got 5th or 6th in my bracket which was a lot better than I anticipated since I ended with 3 wins and 2 losses. The two losses were also very close games since I lost in 3 and not two straight games. Everyone I played was more experienced and better than me too, a bunch of people said they were surprised with my standings.
It's fun to do geek stuff cause I miss being a total geek. I miss being able to be around other geeky people and be in a social network where I have to be someone I'm not to impress people. At least being a geek, I can relax a bit. Unless I'm playing a game then I get uber stressed out and want to rip my hair out.
Moving on then. The second day of lab was ridiculous. I spent the whole night reading up on things to be on top of my game. I was afraid someone would ask me something I didn't know and I'd get into trouble. But instead I kind of screwed up. I was half awake for lab so I wasn't paying much attention to anyone else. I was so focused on my own actions I started to act out what the teacher was saying. It wasn't too long before she started screaming "Stop it Kevin! We're not on that yet you're going too fast!". I snapped out of it for a while and we were all good. But disaster never strikes just once. I was playing with the medicine label for the IV bags and everyone saw me doing so, so they decided to put theirs onto the bag. I hadn't really done much but my teacher said "No!! You're supposed to mix the medication in before you label! Or else you won't know if there's anything in there! See Kevin, everyone's following you cause you were going too fast. See what happens?"
Gosh I felt like such a jerk after that. I apologized to her after class but she said it was ok. She's a new teacher so I didn't want her to think I was bullying her or anything I was just extremely tired homeslice. I wrote a letter today. But I don't know if I'll send it. What if they stopped thinking about you? What's the point? I don't know you tell me. The thing that really holds me back from doing a lot of things is the fact that I know... nothing is 100%. But then again, if we only did things we were completely sure of we wouldn't get much done. Help understand...... I don't know what I'm doing!
It's fun to do geek stuff cause I miss being a total geek. I miss being able to be around other geeky people and be in a social network where I have to be someone I'm not to impress people. At least being a geek, I can relax a bit. Unless I'm playing a game then I get uber stressed out and want to rip my hair out.
Moving on then. The second day of lab was ridiculous. I spent the whole night reading up on things to be on top of my game. I was afraid someone would ask me something I didn't know and I'd get into trouble. But instead I kind of screwed up. I was half awake for lab so I wasn't paying much attention to anyone else. I was so focused on my own actions I started to act out what the teacher was saying. It wasn't too long before she started screaming "Stop it Kevin! We're not on that yet you're going too fast!". I snapped out of it for a while and we were all good. But disaster never strikes just once. I was playing with the medicine label for the IV bags and everyone saw me doing so, so they decided to put theirs onto the bag. I hadn't really done much but my teacher said "No!! You're supposed to mix the medication in before you label! Or else you won't know if there's anything in there! See Kevin, everyone's following you cause you were going too fast. See what happens?"
Gosh I felt like such a jerk after that. I apologized to her after class but she said it was ok. She's a new teacher so I didn't want her to think I was bullying her or anything I was just extremely tired homeslice. I wrote a letter today. But I don't know if I'll send it. What if they stopped thinking about you? What's the point? I don't know you tell me. The thing that really holds me back from doing a lot of things is the fact that I know... nothing is 100%. But then again, if we only did things we were completely sure of we wouldn't get much done. Help understand...... I don't know what I'm doing!
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