Feeling alone.

I know this is a really bad time to ask for your forgiveness but I’m sorry, and this is a really bad time for you to be mad at me… You probably won’t ever read this anyways but I just wanted to write it down somewhere. I’m having a really bad day. My sister went to the states and bought something for everyone except me, not even like a pen. I just wanted something… Later on when we were talking something came up and she’s like “You can’t leave in the morning you have to take care of grandma because I am sleeping in. I decided to sleep in cause I didn’t sleep the last few nights.” Well then you shouldn’t have been so inconsiderate then… The first day in a week that I had a day off and you only think about yourself. On top of that you didn’t even think about telling me and was just gonna let me find out if the topic hadn’t come up. My dad pissed me off today so much too. He turned off my computer by accident and I told him not to touch it. It’s gonna break soon cause my computer hates me too. I told him not to do it again and he said it was my fault for having it on. He could have just asked me to turn it off and not be a dick face. He didn’t even wanna let me go out today. And he said that spending money on gifts no one will like is a waste of money. I spent weeks at a time preparing the perfect gifts for people and he comes along and says nothing I do matters? Well Fuck You buddy… I just wanted to be around someone today… but everyone was busy. I wanted to feel like someone cared but it didn’t work out. Maybe no one does care?